Back to the grind

I'm back and I miss Colorado dearly. Even though Jeremy's back with me, and currently searching for a job, I can't help but feel a) guilty for stealing him away from his friends and family and b) that this is completely unnatural. We'll see how it goes and now we're planning on relocating back to Colorado in a few years after our schooling is completed. My trip was fun. It was hard to spend so much "quality time" with my family, especially since every day was full of meeting new or old relatives and friends. Reunions are so exhausting. Nonetheless, I love Colorado and it was worth it to go back. Unfortunately, I'm back in Seattle now and I need to prepare to dive back into the crappy stuff - like volunteering at Swedish and this CNA course in a couple of weeks. If I'm this nervous about nursing, does it mean I'm not cut out for it or that I want it that bad?