A newish life

So, October 2007 and where am I? I'm living back with my parents in Edmonds, working back in the restaurant industry and am back in school. I'm still becoming accustomed to my new schedule, including the late hours of commuting, and still becoming accustomed to the numerous hours of alone time I have now. It's actually kind of horrible. I can sleep in, read the paper, go to the gym every day and then go to class. As if having to transfer to the evening degree program was bad enough, now I hardly have any contact with my family or friends during the day and I'm living outside the city. I sent several messages to friends over the course of the week and only heard back from the dependable folk that live out of the city. That figures.

I also thought I was looking forward to going back to school but after completing my first full week... I'm ready to be done. I think I've reached my limit. All classes are the same! Complete these few assignments, take the midterm, write a term paper and pass the final. It's so boring and hard to stay motivated when confronted with the same workload every quarter. I think I'm ready to be a working professional!

On top of this, I'm left wondering in these endless hours of alone time if my dying, one-sided relationship is really on its last leg. It's hard to tell but, honestly, it can't be done alone. Still, I'm trying to figure out which part of it I'm clinging to most. In the end, it's hard to make sense of someone else's actions without any communication. 'Nough said.

I can at least say that I've gotten to slow myself down in terms of work and other commitments. I've gotten to go to the gym, focus on myself and be selfish. Completely. I suppose that's worth the loneliness. Thanks for reading.