I'm back.

I was reminded of this blog today and decided I should revive it. Because it's out there. I have experienced enormous change in the year since I last posted here. I like to think that I've grown up. A lot. I've shaken my low self-esteem and restored my sense of self worth. I am enjoying a new confidence that I couldn't have found if not for the personal turmoil I've experienced over the last couple of months. Breaking up provided the push I needed to find my own strength by forcing me into the darkest place I've ever been. Jeremy and I have been talking since and have been able to restore a healthier relationship with each other as a result. I finally see the significance in taking things slow and have discovered several things I would like to accomplish before settling down. For instance, I'm tentatively planning a lengthy trip through Europe next Summer/Fall of '08. I haven't traveled abroad yet and am excited to experience places I've only dreamt of! Hopefully I can refresh my French before going but I'm not sure that I'll get around to France this time. If you have any travel experience/tips to offer, please do!

On another note, I just finished reading Magical Thinking by Augusten Burroughs. He's on the same track as David Sedaris (whom I love!) if you're unfamiliar. I found the following passage to be extremely poignant:

"I take the subway uptown. I think, Have I given up anything by living with another person? Has there been a trade-off? Always, there is a trade-off. And the answer comes to me instantly. I have given up a certain degree of freedom. The ability to plow through my life with utter disregard for the thoughts and feelings of other people. I can no longer read a magazine and throw it on the floor.
"In exchange, I get unlimited access to the one person I have met in my life whom I automatically felt was out of my league. My favorite human being, the single person I cherish above all others. This is the person I get to share the oxygen in the room with.
"And for this, I will happily scrub the toilet. And I won't make fun of anybody who drives an SUV. Unless, of course, they really deserve it. And I'll try to let things happen. Not always feel like I have to control everything.
"With the exception of those things I can control, that is, with my mind."